Goal Attained

I’ve been eating my way through my divorce.

In January I was up to 185 pounds which is about 40 pounds heavier than I want to be.

I don’t want to lose weight because I feel insecure or bad about myself.

I mean if you follow me on IG you know I’ve been wearing a bikini all summer.

I started out 2022 at 185 pounds.

I was feeling really gross.

None of my clothes fit me (and most of them are elasticized).

I couldn’t bend over easily.

My boobs are uncomfortably big.

Crossing my legs was becoming a little uncomfortable.

I had gestational diabetes in all of my pregnancies and I carry most of my weight around my middle. That’s like a walking billboard for heart disease and diabetes now.

I want to lose weight because I want to take better care of myself and I want to be around to see my grandchildren if I’m lucky enough to have any.

I don’t want to be a burden to my kids.

I don’t want to miss out on stuff because I didn’t take care of myself.

I lost ten pounds in the first three months of the year.

Then I gained eight of them back.

Then I lost those eight again.

Then I just kind of held steady for a while.

Three weeks ago I realized I was – again – emotionally eating my way through the hard stuff in my life.

And I had created a routine where I was just mindlessly binging on anything super high in sugar or carbs.

Ice cream, bread, pretzels, cake, cookies, bagels, granola bars, cereal… Oh I started a really bad bowl-of-cereal-in-bed habit.

So three weeks ago I stopped that.

The last few weeks have been very hard. There’s been a lot of crying.

But there hasn’t been a lot of binging on garbage.

My next weight loss goal was to just get under 170 pounds.

And today, I did it.

It has been a long, long time since I’ve been under 170 pounds.

A LONG TIME.

I’m really proud of myself.

My progress has not been linear.

I’ve been ALL OVER the place.

I’ve failed and succeeded and then failed and then REALLY failed.

But I haven’t given up on myself.

Don’t give up on yourself if you are having trouble figuring it out.

The only way you’ll get there is if you just keep going.

Little by little you’ll figure out what works and what doesn’t.

And I’ll be figuring it out right alongside you.

Next stop, 165 pounds!