Still searching for the gray.


I used to go see this therapist who was amazing. She literally helped me turn my life around. But she was a fucking disaster. Her office was a mess, her car was a mess, and her appearance was also a mess. I found it a little bit ironic that someone who was helping me to […]

Powering Down


I overdid it today. I exercised too much, had too many things to do, didn’t take one break all day, didn’t eat or drink enough, just got home from coaching a swim meet, and I feel awful. My former self would have written a post at all costs. Because, well, because that’s what I do. […]

88 Days and Counting

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If I had to make a list of the biggest influences in my life to date, two things would be at the top of my list. The first would be my parents. And the second would be the sport of swimming. My parents have modeled the importance of hard work, perseverance, loyalty, and the bond of family. And so […]

Head of the Class


Last week I wrote a post about how, after being inspired by my yoga teacher, I was going to stop hiding in the back of the studio and move myself up to the front of the room. I was going to stop worrying about how I looked or the fact that I still am relatively […]

Christmas in January


Today was one of the most rewarding days of my whole life. Last night I wrote this post and launched Patty’s Go Fund Me campaign. I didn’t tell her what I was doing. I just wanted her to find out kind of by way of surprise. And then I got this text this morning:   I […]