I’m struggling.
Not emotionally.
But with food.
I climbed on a runaway train about a month ago, and I have not been able to locate that brake cord thing hanging down from the ceiling.
And I think I’ve developed an addiction to carbs.
I have no ability to eat them in moderation, and I am craving them constantly and eating them mindlessly.
Like all the time. Breakfast. Lunch. Dinner. In between.
If one of the kids wakes me up in the middle of the night, I’ll get them settled back into bed, and then make a pit stop in the kitchen. 1, 2, 3 in the morning. It doesn’t matter what time it is.
I feel like crap.
Not so much because of the number on the scale or what I look like in the mirror.
Honestly, I still feel pretty attractive between the sheets.
And my husband doesn’t mind.
But the weight goes right to my midsection, and I know that puts me at a higher risk for other health issues in the future.
I run a fitness course and I’m supposed to be setting an example.
I feel sluggish when I run. I can feel the extra weight on me. My clothes are tighter. Some are too tight now to even wear. I’m more tired than usual, and I know it’s largely because of my diet.
And I’m just really disappointed with myself for losing control.
And then out of the blue, I got an email from this company called Personal Trainer Food.
They offered me a 28 day meal plan. For free. All I had to do was share my experience, and follow the rules.
I’m not one to eat prepared food.
But I’m also
1) out of control
and
2) in no position to turn down free food.
So I said what the hell.
And I’m starting tomorrow. On a Saturday. Five days before Christmas.
I guess I could have waited until January 1st to start.
Or at least a Monday.
But you know me.
I really like a challenge.
And I’m sick of feeling out of control.
As part of the terms of my commitment, I have to post pictures and updates on my progress.
And if I quit or cheat I have to pay for the food. And we all know I don’t have the money for that.
It’s not going to be easy, but I’m looking forward to resetting my internal clock and regaining some control.
So you’ll be taking this journey with me, and I’m really thankful for that.
Because I think when I’m at my friend’s Christmas cookie swap party next Monday night, I’m going to need some serious support.
You can do it!!! Last year I was 65 lbs overweight, high blood pressure and high cholesterol. I decided I wouldn’t eat past 5pm anymore. We’ll a year later I’ve lost the weight…gained energy and I feel better! No BP problems or cholesterol scares. It’s hard…but every day I stick to it …makes it easier. My family met for this last Thanksgiving dinner at 5pm and I boxed up my dinner for the next day…it sucked but a plate of food wasn’t worth breaking my lifestyle change!:) I just enjoyed catching up with my family. I started with zero discipline. You Got This.
It’s the wheat causing all the struggle and trouble. Believe me, I was there. Eliminate wheat. Works like a miracle! Eliminate all grains if you can (eg, also rice, oats) is even better. You’ll feel immediate results- no more nonstop hunger etc etc. bliss!
See dr William Davis blog and books (wheat belly blog and books) for more info. End the grain carb hell!
Just stop eating wheat right now and you’ll feel 100% better by day 2.
Sincerely,
Kari
Isn’t there wheat in beer? That’s going to make no wheat impossible
I’m sure you’ll succeed. You ooze determination!!
You can do it!!!! I am trying to get back on the losing weight bandwagon myself, I just had my second child and gained a ton of weight from him, I never lost the baby weight from when I had my daughter almost three years ago due to my mother dying and I just kinda “lost control”. Now I am dying to lose all that weight and look better for myself and get healthier. If you can do it I am sure I can too! Good luck!!! I am rooting for ya!
Dearest Suzie, you are nuts…
You look amazing, do whatever makes you feel good and healthy but I would kill for your body and so would soooo many other women. Jut wanted to remind you that you are a hot mama and you don’t have to change a thing.
I am right there with you! I have been uncontrollably eating and it’s getting out of hand. I’m a “tomorrow” girl though so after Christmas, I’m getting back on the wagon! I refuse to buy bigger clothes and if I keep growing, I won’t have any more clothes to wear.
That’s great! Timing was perfect.