Today all the kids ate lunch together out on the front deck of our little vacation place.
They had a nice time together.
They were laughing and having fun and talking and there wasn’t a device in sight.
I was going to post this picture on Facebook or Instagram, but I never got around to it today.
I might post it tomorrow.
Because it’s one of the moments I want to remember from this trip.
But this is not representative of our entire trip.
There have been tears.
There have been fights.
There have been arguments.
There have been freakouts.
There have been meltdowns.
Just like we have at home.
I won’t document those moments for all the world to see because I wouldn’t want anyone documenting mine.
But they are here.
We are having lots of really great moments on our vacation.
But don’t be fooled.
We are having plenty of real life bad ones, too.
It’s just nice to have them without being accompanied by all the chaos of everyday life, too.
I know everyone has/had their own struggles on their relationship but there’s one thing I seem to always struggle with- its that Im sad I didn’t have more times as a family whole when they are little. They’re now 8 and 4 and split betwn us 50/50. Its hard admitting the fact I will only watch my kids grow 50% of the time. Im not sure I ll ever “ get over that” fact but I cant seem to logically find a brighter side to it. Yes I know it was best we spilt for the kids sake, yes I know we aren’t compatible, yes where I live is a better school system for my kids, many positives but that one lingering thought weighs me down when it creeps up. Your kids are all a bit older, you had those precious little years if cute good mornings, Im missing them. 🙁