I don’t really know where to begin.
A couple days ago I wrote a post explaining my current situation.
I wasn’t looking for money or handouts.
I was more writing the post because I know I’m not the only person in this situation. And what I know is that being in this situation fucking sucks.
But I believe there is a way out.
And I believe this is happening to me because there is something I’m supposed to learn from this.
So I really just wanted to encourage other people who can relate to keep going. Stay the course.
Because when faced with tremendous financial difficulties, or any other difficulties for that matter, curling up into a ball in the corner of the room can look pretty tempting.
But it doesn’t help you change your circumstances.
When one of the ladies in one of the e-courses I’m running suggested starting a Go Fund Me campaign for me, at first I said no.
I said that while that would help me in the short term, it wouldn’t solve my long term problems.
I said that people would judge, that people would wonder why the fuck I haven’t been able to get myself out of this mess, that people would shame me.
But then I thought about it more.
I need to help my family. I need to save my family. And I will do whatever I can.
I will accept whatever help is offered to me until we are caught up.
Regardless of what you all might think, I do not write about every single detail of my life.
There are things I keep private.
Some because I think I should, and others because I am respecting peoples’ privacy.
While I do invite you into my life, there are many aspects of it of which you are unaware. And while you know some of the story, you don’t know all of it.
So I told the e-course ladies that I would let whatever happens happen.
If they wanted to go ahead and start a Go Fund Me campaign, I was okay with it.
As predicted, there were lots of judgemental people who felt the need to shame me.
To tell me it was time for me to go back to work.
Who felt the need to let me know that they “never accepted handouts.”
I know I don’t need to justify myself.
The people who don’t get it, don’t get it.
And they probably never will get it.
But the reality of the situation is that I have been working full time all summer.
I have been teaching private swim lessons and coaching the swim team.
I haven’t had a day off, actually, in over 5 weeks.
I have worked every single day. Weekends, too.
So for all the people wondering why I haven’t gone back to work, well, I have.
And I am almost making enough money at this point to cover the bills.
But I am not making enough money to come up with $35,000 in the next couple months.
I am so far down in a hole, that I cannot climb back out unassisted.
And that is where the people who get it come in.
Thank you to the ladies in my e-course. You are my supporters. My defenders.
Thank you to Tracey and Jo and Joanna and Sharlene and Emily and Kelly and Jana and Chantelle and Kathie and Carrie and Debra.
You have all gone above and beyond. You have become my family.
And I love you all.
And thank you to all the people who have supported their efforts.
Thank you for all your kind and supportive comments.
Thank you for your donations.
I am blown away by everybody. There really aren’t words for me to convey how I feel.
Thank you for believing in me and constantly reminding me that the world is full of some incredibly amazing people.
I am truly humbled and amazed by your support.
And the truth of the matter is, we are all a big family here.
And that was initially the goal of this blog. To create a place where moms (and dads) felt supported, and not alone.
I thought I was trying to provide a place like that for other people.
But you have provided that place for me.
And I will be forever grateful.